Turn my back

Ok I know 10 days since my last post.
Well it’s simple I was way too busy to post, (but not read my blogofriends posts )
And here is something I wrote, I hope it isn’t too melancholic…..

The day has came
The day that I wished for
The day you say, let us be friends
The words are lost in their meanings
What is friendship?
Am I your friend?
The immortal feeling of love
Didn’t die, but it have been subdued
I overcame the lose that overcame me
The sadness that consumed me
So when you called
I didn’t know what to do
So when you asked for my friendship
I didn’t know what to say
You asked for pressured relationship
I responded by an unconditional offer
But sorry sweet E
For I will not endure that pain again
I am a man, and my word is my obligation
I told you that I will never leave you alone
And I won’t
I am a man, and I will not cry anymore
I told you that I worship your smile
And I will always do

TroubledSoul or a DumbSoul

Days have passed since I last posted, and the reason is very simple I was very confused what to write.
Well lets be simple, she left him (again) and was feeling very bad about that, as always I was the supportive friend.
Let me tell you one thing ones of the hardest things in life is to see the woman you love cry for another man.
And again she told me how wonderful I am, how good she feels when I’m around and blablabla.
But the only thing that prevents our comeback is the physical part, don’t get her wrong, she’s talking about kissing her, she said that she can’t imagine kissing me.
I said, please fulfill my ego, and I kissed her from all my heart, my heart almost stopped, it was Sunday the 8th of April at 19:18.
Do you know what was her reaction, she said who am I kidding, it’s you that I love…
So I felt WOW, OMG, YEY. Her color changed and she was acting like it was the greatest day of her life.
I asked her to get back together, she asked for two days, I promised her that she can have her time (yeah right).
On Monday I couldn’t wait anymore so I called her at 18:18 well to my surprise, she said that she wants to spend sometime alone (great).
On Tuesday I tried my luck one more time, I called at 19:18, the same answer came again, and she offered to be my friend and support me like I did with her, my answer to that offer was, I was there for you cuz I love you and I can’t see you hurt, why do u want to support me?
So I thanked her (again) and told her to forget my name (again)….
The questions are:

• Do I really want her back?
• Is she abusing me?
• Can I know she is suffering without helping her?
• Does she love me?
• Can I live with a person that doesn’t love me?
• Am I a TroubledSoul or a DumbSoul?